Most of my life I denied my true self, through the experiences and woundings from my childhood, teenage years and young adulthood I learned to play small to survive and protect myself.
This was a contradiction to who I really was, which I would unconsciously display through the clothes choices I made, the dancing I’d do in front of the babysitter as a child, whilst I played the role of the conforming person I showed to the world to feel accepted.
This was a confusing way to grow up.
One of the biggest wounds that shaped me was the deterioration of relationship with my Dad. This left me feeling abandoned, unwanted, unworthy, unheard and unloved. This led to me craving love and male attention, and seeking it in distorted ways. Completely giving my power away.
It took many years to realise my behaviours and when I finally did I declared to a friend that enough was enough and the following day I met my Partner. It took turbulence and many years more to heal and rectify the way I saw myself but I finally did it, my partner supported me all the way and I have healed the relationship with my Dad to a place that is mutual.
You realise that not everything is as it seems when you get on the other side of healing. The veils truly do lift.
One thing all of those negative self beliefs did was suppress my Feminine energy. I just didn’t know how to express who I truly was. Even when I finally felt loved and accepted.
This part of my journey came when I was guided to an energy healing course. working with Energy turned a light on within me and opened up the path to my True Self. It had shown me a glipse of my truest expression.
Still I continued to deny and recognise my Divine Feminine fully, I didn’t know how to understand the expansive energy pulsing through me. But I was devoted to trying.
Thread by thread I unravelled myself trying to find this light I could feel within me.
It took me on a deep deep path of healing, deeper than I ever thought was possible, showing me the many subtle and powerful ways the body can continue to function whilst holding so much damaging baggage.
Then came the point where no matter what the barrier was that was appearing as my comfort zone, I was determined to push it.
This is how the Feminine works, she guides you like a mother who knows your every thought and move, she’s invisible but you know she’s there, she can read your mind and knows exactly what you need to become all you desire to be. But she also knows she cannot step in, you must find your strength to thrive for your desire.
Desire is of higher resonance than need or want, it holds higher standards, it may take a little while longer to reach and you make feel like a failure over and over, but devotion and desire are the arms of the feminine and they encompass the heart that holds them and light the golden pathway for the Soul to follow.
And so it went, obstacle after obstacle I pushed myself. Small things like talking in front of people, offering healing work to those I once would of seen as “better than me” and finding that they are amazed with my feedback and results.
Building myself into who I desired to be.
You then cross a threshold where the path of healing and evolution changes. I guess you could call it raising your frequency, the way you heal yourself becomes different, it’s more of an internal job, a resonance within that you communicate with differently because you have moved into a version of yourself you desired to be.
This shift unlocked many Soul gifts for me, and enabled me to work within my inner world and the higher realms with guides, plant spirits and ascended masters who have become my wisest teachers that I turn to most and co-create with.
I have surrendered and embraced my feminine, she patiently waited for me to unfurl, and to begin allowing our expression and authenticity to shine through.
The path I once saw as wounds and unsafe is now a cavern of wisdom and memories of the experiences I had which has unlocked who I am and still am becoming.
When you heal the feminine you heal the masculine too, my path has also been in deep devotion to the masculine within, this energy of mine carried the broken feminine me through a huge part of my life, patiently holding space for all of the healing I went through. This is the union we work to bring into harmony.
The Venus path is my devotion to all that have guided and taught me, it is a memorable moment and another threshold crossed, one of inner knowing that I am the Divine within, and that I am open to the authentic expression of my Soul.
This co-creation invites you to step into the Cosmic Dance of your Feminine energy, to allow her to reach you through a container dedicated to this intention and with me as your guide and space holder, who you know has walked and still walks the path with you.
Thank you for witnessing, and I hope this story has stirred the feminine within you to begin her rising.
A kree ou ay rah na
ou nei nei hou ah Ra na
From my Heart to Yours
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If you’d like to speak to me about the Venus Path to see if it is the right fit for you please email me (contact details clickable at the bottom of the page) and we can arrange a free 20 minute call or online video call for you to feel more deeply into this journey.
I will be extending the Early Bird offer until 24th May use code: VENUS when you make your energy exchange.
I highly recommend clicking the apply now button to answer the questionnaire that it takes you to, it may provoke the Feminine within.