I have a beautiful and amazing story for you today. One that is so inspiring that I just have to share it with you. The story does of course include Mama Cacao, a dear guide and ally of mine. So as any good story needs, I'll do my best to set the scene for you before getting to the good part....
In my cacao part 1 post I had recently been introduced to a Guatemalan Cacao - Ruk'u'xUlew by a dear friend of mine. Mama Cacao, much as is her medicine, was at work bringing what she knew I needed to me. This Cacao had such a different energy, the first time I came to prepare it I was stopped by her energy as she told me to hold the block of cacao to my heart and let her first read me. I did as I was asked to of course, then set to my usual process of preparing my cacao once she told me I could. This was the beginning of a magical relationship.
For over three months I worked personally with this cacao as she was guiding me to, whilst using another (Peruvian) cacao for all of my offerings and ceremonies. She told me that I had personal work to do before I could bring her to others, so I listened. Lots of emotional healing went on within this time for me, I reached into layers of myself that I was unaware of, and with her medicine my abilities to channel have deepened in many ways.
As our journey togther went on my gatherings and offerings were picking up momentum and I had toyed with the idea (or you could say heard the guidance but got scared of it) about becoming a distributor of cacao, I put this idea to Mama Cacao and my team, and asked for a sign I should do this and within a few weeks it was becoming a reality; first I bought from another UK stockist to test how this would work, if it would fit into what I am gradually building, but felt the call to reach out to the Ruk'u'xUlew women's collective in Guatemala to source directly from them. I emailed, but didn't hear back from them so trusted the universe to deliver this to me when it was meant to be.
Then came the day when Guatemalan Mama Cacao (who actually feels more like a Grand Mother - this I personally feel is partly because of the Women of the Ruk'u'x'Ulew collective) told me to bring her to others - This began with what I would only call an initiation - during a personal ceremony Mama Cacao called me to her in a visualsiation, she appeared as what I could only describe as a beautiful earthly brown flowery looking woman and I was there in my brown summer dress dancing wildly, in the visualisation Mama Cacao approached me as I danced and told me in her own words that "my dancing was beautiful, yet untamed and that together we can be better - still wild and free but peaceful, calm and magical together." This gave me the courage I needed to continue on my gently unravelling journey.
In this time the exploration of becoming a stockist had also shifted, I heard back from Ruk'u'x'Ulew and in a few short emails I was ordering 22kg of Cacao! On the day of transferring the money, I had a "do you mean it?" moment, the bank stopped my payment to the shipping company and suspended my account and I had lots of 3D anxieties rise in and around me. I checked in with myself and kept on and eventually ended up in a laugh cry when the dear lady who I had been buying from in the UK told me this is just kind of how the process goes to begin with and to just trust. So I regathered myself, sorted the issues with my bank, made the payments and awaited my delivery in 2-3 weeks time. By the way, the Cacao is pronounced Roo Koosh Ouh Ley Ou, and means heart of the earth.
So back to integrating this Guatemalan Grand Mother of an energy into my offerings....Initially I was guided to blend her with another cacao, ease her medicine in gently, then came the day that we went at it alone, together.
This just so happened to be the first cacao ceremony I had set up to run in a morning - bringing the ceremonies completely in line with how I prefer to work (one evening event can just wipe me out for weeks, what with a daughter that rises before the sun most days!) I had 4 blocks of Cacao left from the UK purchase I'd made and in all honesty I was as nervous as I was excited about all that was unfolding but I was definitely feeling the buzz of being in this beautiul flow of unfolding.
This Cacao ceremony was testing for me in some ways, but beautiful and healing too. We all had a wonderful ceremony, everyone drank every drop of cacao (this was a first) and many people there shared the experiences they had had. Most people even brought some cacao to take home. One lady kept quiet, and as is my way as a facilitator and space holder I respected her process, but ensured she was okay.
The next day I received a voice message from the lady who had stayed quiet; During the shamanic sound journey, I channeled some light language, it was short and quiet, and I interpreted it as meaning that activation had taken place, "souls were happy to recieve". is what I heard. What her voice message said blew me away. The lady had been activated, her light language had switched on and she had been called to go to the forest where she had some work she was called to do.
When she was at the land, she received further messages, along with light language continuously flowing in, that she must ask me to come to the land with her, that I had to drive us and that I would receive guidance on what else we needed to do, as well as her.
I felt into this and immediately knew I had to go, we didn't know each other, we had met once just two days before but here we were, meeting and bringing all of our guided items, and of course a large dose of Ruk'u'x'Ulew Cacao along with us. Whatever Mama Cacao had in store for me, by this time I was totally happy to trust her.
On the journey, my now friend was whispering light language most of the way, as she instructed me on where to drive, I was amazed at where we were driving, so close to where I live, but I had never been to this beautiful country side, as we drove through the fields I felt a deep peace come over me and could hear the lands calling. It was amazing.
We arrived at the land and walked to the spot my friend had been shown we must go to, as we were walking she told me how she had learned of this land and what had called her there but that her feelings of where it could head had changed, and it wasn't actually the direction that she intially felt, it now felt more that it was about bringing me to this specific place. she then said that from above, the land is outlined by trees in the shape of a heart. I replied with "heart of the Earth? Thats the name of the Cacao!" Something within me felt very excited.
We held a beautiful and moving ceremony, we each tuned in and followed the guidance that came through, as we opened the flask of cacao I felt Mama Cacao speak to me, she told me that we must first offer some cacao to the lands here, so we poured the first cacao out of the flask onto the Earth. It became clear to me at this point too that my role within this ceremony was to hold space whilst my friend did all she was guided to do so I focused on my role, knowing that I would connect and receive what was for me when the time was right. This came in the way of my friend guiding me to another part of the land where there were trees, I came over very emotional and felt that my role was to release some of what had shifted within the work we had done here today and with my friends guidance I drummed for the lands before we left for home.
After our ceremony and leaving an offering to the land we headed back to the car and home, both receiving gifts of feathers and deer jaw bone which to me are always signs of gratitude and reciprocity of the work we do on behalf of Mother Earth. When I arrived home I sat for a while to take in all that happened on this magical day.
This is when I received the personal insight for my trip there... Mama Cacao came through to me loud and clear "From my home to yours" she said "the Heart of the Earth". This is my medicine and I travel to you now, all will be well. Welcome me to your lands, ask permission to receive me"
My shipment of cacao was enroute to me, I had to ask permission whilst she was travelling to me.
The cacao shipment was being stopped by customs at nearly every port it went through; Panama City, Cincinati, Miami Airport, East Midlands Airport, Heathrow! It too and throwed between the UK airports for almost a week!
I had asked permission at my home and received acceptance but still the shipment wasn’t moving.
I was divinely guided to a crop circle (which I have previously written about) and as well as feeling the energy there I also asked permission for Mama Cacao to arrive to me safely and in return I offered my self as a vessel for anything that Pachamama /Mother Earth may need my assistance with.
This caused a shift as on this day I watched the notifications of my shipment move. I still had more work to do though, I could feel it.
I sat in ceremony and asked Mama Cacao “how can I further be of service? What else do I need to do?”
The very next time I picked up my phone I had an email notification that I’d been successfully picked to take part in a Cacao Business Accelerator offering from the Mayan Wisdom Project. - I had applied to learn more about the traditions of the ancestors - the Mayans - of the beautiful cacao I was now working with, this was important to me to know the medicine and her roots. - And here was my answer, there was information I had to know, I had to know the traditions of the people who grow this sacred medicine, I had to know and honour them in order to really welcome them here. I cried.
I began the accelerator program and the first week alone taught me so much. I felt the honouring these people held for this sacred medicine and it matched the love within my heart in many ways but also deepened and expanded it.
I’d finally done enough, I held another ceremony to welcome All I knew of this beautiful cacao to our lands and within days there was movement to the local sorting office and my cacao shipment arrived. I cried again.
This beautiful medicine and this journey have taught me so much.
Everything has a spirit. Every being. Mama Cacao is my guide, teacher and mentor always and she knows exactly what I need. She is a representation of the Heart of the Earth - hence the name by the women’s collective Ruk’U’x’ulew.
This also gave me a huge reminder of what you wish to step into, you first have to become the right version of yourself for it. I had to really mean it, I had to offer myself even more as a vessel to Mama Cacao and to Gaia. Which has resulted in many people already buying this cacao from me and the Gaia message coming through followed by the divine Gaia gathering.
This has also taught me much about myself and my own unique medicine, and I will continue to bravely step into what is guided to me. And I will never doubt Cacao as part of my path again, I am in absolute acceptance now that I am a messenger and guardian of her medicine. The more I honour her and myself in this role themore authentic my medicine will be. This is so important, especially when working with sacred teachers such as Mama Cacao.
Thank you for listening to my story and I hope it offers you trust and belief in how the divine may be speaking to and through you. We are all here for our unique abilities and if we resist they will shout louder until we soften, listen, surrender and allow. This too is the key to trusting your own guidance and abilities.
if you would like to learn more about the beautiful women that produce the Heart of the Earth Cacao - Ruk'u'x'Ulew you can do so here...
If you are interested in learning more about working with the spirit of cacao you can purchase and read about it here...
Aho!